All I Ever Wanted
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All I Ever Wanted


Nancy is four, nearly five. She talks all the time: in the car, on the way to nursery, to her extrovert older brother, to her collection of bears. But then, one February morning, everything changes. Nancy's mum and dad split up. Her father Patrick moves away from their Bristol home to Newcastle. And Nancy stops talking.
Eva is forty-four, nearly forty-five. She didn't expect to be the third wife of a much-loved household name, but eight years ago, she and semi-retired bad boy Michael Quinn fell in love. Eva knew marrying a much older man meant compromises, but it was the love of a lifetime for them both - until Mickey dies suddenly, leaving Eva alone with his gossipy diaries, their two pugs, and a distressing voice in the back of her mind, wondering if perhaps she's sacrificed more than she meant to.
While Nancy's parents negotiate their separation, the question of weekend contact is solved when Patrick volunteers his sister Eva's house. It's in Longhampton, an hour out of Bristol, with plenty of room for her to get to know a niece and nephew she's barely met - even if Nancy continues to refuse to speak. Patrick is sure it's just a phase but his soon-to-be-ex-wife is worried that something more traumatic lies at the heart of their daughter's selective mutism.
Meanwhile, Eva begins to read through Mickey's diaries, and with every page she's forced to confront a view of her marriage that turns everything she believed about her late husband, her self - and her own heart - on its head. The fortnightly presence of two children in her peaceful, grown-up home - one constantly singing and performing, the other wordless and sad - initially drives Eva and the two pugs, Bumble and Bee, to exhaustion, but as spring turns into summer, a trust slowly begins to form between an anxious little girl with a heartbreaking secret, and a woman who has realised too late that what her soul yearns for is the love of a child.

Title:All I Ever Wanted
Format Type:Paperback
Number of Pages:464 pages

    All I Ever Wanted Reviews

  • Lynn Mccarthy
    Dec 24, 2016

    This is the first book I have read by this Author but not the last.The book is about family issues and relationships there are two separate stories that intertwine in the story plus two cute children....

  • Katherine
    Nov 24, 2016

    Lucy Dillon is one of my 'go to' books for when I need a 'comfort read'. So this week on a wet, dark, cold morning when I was not feeling my brightest or my best, this book really was 'all I ever want...

  • Louise
    Oct 04, 2016

    Nancy is four, nearly five. She talks all the time: in the car, on the way to nursery, to her extrovert older brother, to her collection of bears. But then, one February morning, everything changes. N...

  • Nicola Clough
    Jan 14, 2017

    I always look forward to Lucy Dillon's books and she certainly didn't disappoint at all very moving story and follows the lives of number of people and makes you think. Caitlin is going through a spli...

  • Emma Rogers
    Nov 20, 2016

    I'm not notorious for reading books outside of the young adult genre on this blog but I thought I would widen my horizons when I requested this novel on Netgalley from well know author, Lucy Dillon. A...

  • Rachel Gilbey
    Nov 15, 2016

    What a wonderfully heart warming and loving story, about one family, as they are going through a tough patch.When Patrick accepts a job in Newcastle, Caitlin refuses to uproot their children to move u...

  • Karen Mace
    Dec 02, 2016

    As a big fan of Lucy Dillon I am always ready to read her latest stories, so couldn't wait to get my hands on this one! And after a slow start that didn't immediately grab me, I was soon drawn into th...

  • Kerry
    Mar 29, 2017

    Well, what a beautiful ending to an emotional, thought provoking and, at times, amusing story.Caitlin is married to Patrick and they have two children, 10 year old Joel and 4 year old Nancy. Both are ...

  • Laura
    Nov 13, 2016

    Book reviews on I haven't read any other Lucy Dillon books before, but All I Ever Wanted really impressed me. It was everything I wanted it to be: sweet, emotional, funny, realisti...

  • MetLineReader
    Nov 24, 2016

    Great tale of a family in crisis. The cherry on top is the characterisation of the Pugs, Bumble and Bee, who bring warmth and humour to what is potentially a much more difficult story. Loved the kids ...